I have admittedly not been posting a lot, something I am trying to rectify here in LSU land.

While I have been sick again for the last 2 weeks, as well as being involved in major time consuming product launch at work, the real reason I have taken a little time off is that, in all honesty, periodically I just get tired.

I am tired of the politics at play in DC concerning the stimulus.  I am tired of the most transparent government ever now planning how to stifle criticism.

I am tired of the marriage debate in California.  I am sick of columnists there who desire to define the debate in stilted terms, where anyone who dares hold to traditional family values is demonized as illiterate, mouth breathing and inbred.

I am tired of Speaker Pelosi playing around in China and lecturing them on being green while ignoring they are the world leaders in pollution now.  And why is the Speaker playing foreign policy?  Her job is in congress, not in Asia.  I am sick of her using the world stage to duck complaints about her knowing about water boarding.

And I am sick of Water boarding.  All that debate shows is that no two people can agree on what torture is, let alone whether it should be used or not.  I am sick of people complaining about it when they haven’t a bloody clue what they are talking about.

I am sick of watching the first couple parade around to the adoration of the press.  So they went to Manhattan.  Who cares?  Yes I know, its tacky in times of harsh unemployment for them to parade their privilege around.  So what?  Since when do we actually expect politicians to give a damn about the people they represent?

I am sick of political parties to home party identity is more important than actual values. 

I am sick of racist judges to whom race trumps justice.

Simply put, sometimes I regret ever starting this blog.  One of the things you do is set up a list of places where you parse information.  And when the information is so filled with such misleading and depressing drivel, you sometimes just want to pack it in.

Does anyone really read it?  Does anything I say make an impact?  Am I just parroting the same empty stories that others are?  And do any of us really contribute anything substantive? 

In a world where there are so many blogs, plus podcasts, youtube and the TV news, does any of it really matter?

Face it, I am just tired.

I suppose you expect some moment of enlightenment.  Some moment of when I convince myself not to hang it up and just take pretty pictures in my spare time.

I don’t have one.

I really don’t.  I will keep blogging, I think, for one reason only:

I have to have hope that somehow my contribution makes a difference.  I have to believe that somehow I am part of a healing process to this mess.

And frankly, if I didn’t do something to try and make a difference, I think a part of me would die.

Part of what makes Humans what we are is our ability to strive on in the face of overwhelming odds. 

Perseverance.   Hope.

One is the quality that keeps us trying in the face of horrible odds.

And the other is what gives us confidence that our struggles might someday bear fruit.

I hope you share that with me.

LSU

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